What can i do sometimes??

There was a special girl in my life. For the first time in my life, i thought i would marry someone. I did everything to make her happy but it wasn't enough; we broke up. Then another girl showed up. She was special too, it always is... For the second time of my life, i thought i would marry someone. I tried to be loyal, kind and all i had been doing was loving her. Guess what? It wasn't enough; we broke up. Then i stop and i think a moment; i have been against the marriage throughout my life so why in a world am i spending my time thinking to marry just because i met two girls??? Or may be i should choose gay marriage, afterall it seems more reliable :)